Iono, the school year is almost coming to an end and it's really getting to me and the others...Kikki, Vivian, and I have been talking about it a lot too. How EVERY SINGLE YEAR we're losing friends since the 7th grade. 7th grade we lost Gisa, 8th grade we lost Yume-chan, now we're losing 4 people !!

I know it's stupid that we're getting attached to 4 people we don't know so well, but we can't really help it...I just bet they don't feel the same way about leaving...Feeling all depressed...But still, we can't help but feel sooo frickin empty and sad that they're leaving...We only met them half-way through the year and now they're leaving...We hardly even got to know them and they have to leave...Haha, if any of them were reading this XDD I bet they'd be laughing at us or thinking we're frickin cheesy and stupid...But iono...I sometimes wish I can read minds so I can know what they're thinking...If they'll miss it at Westmoor...us? But I doubt they'll miss us....I mean c'mon...we barely know each other right...?

Vivian has been telling me about how she'd hate the year to end because she feels like we haven't made it clear that we're friends of theirs. She wants them to know and feel that we're their friends on their graduation day...And I agree with her...So does Kikki. We want them to leave this year knowing we're good friends of theirs...But it's really getting hard right now...Iono...It seems like everytime we try to get closer to them, we get pushed back by another problem into the same spot we were. It's like with nii-chan this month...Iono I felt like we were getting close to him but the night before Kikki, Val, and I went to Santa Cruz, we called up nii-chan and Pete for fun...We were planning on talking but we froze and just stayed silent...Pete hung up but nii-chan was still on the phone and we left him hanging on the phone for 2 hrs without saying anything -_- and I still feel bad about it !! We called him up the next morning to say 'sorry'...We found out that he got mad a little at us....And I just got a bit sad because I still felt bad about it...and like he said that night we weren't saying anything 'that's not what friends do' really got to me...So then I started to feel a rift between us and him...I dunno, it might just be my imagination -_- but I don't know...I'm a bit confused right now...It might be from thinking about this too much and lack of sleep...But Kikki, Vivian, and I still think the hallways are going to feel a bit empty next year...Haha, I guess we're used to seeing them, saying 'hi's', and stalling in the hallways :D Shhh, yesh I do have issues of letting people go XP ...Even if it doesn't seem like it !!